sweet HYPOCRISY

First off, as you may or may not have noticed, I have not written anything in quite sometime. The main reason for that is absolute laziness. I just didn’t feel like it. I wasn’t particularly busy or anything like that, I just didn’t really feel like writing anything. I think I feel like writing right now.

This week has been a considerably crappy one. As lame as it may sound, the crap has been centererd for me around my car. Read the rest of this entry »

Spanish Dancer by John Singer Sargent

I can’t stop looking at this Waterhouse painting.

I feel like this sometimes.

There is a pleasure in the pathless woods,
There is a rapture on the lonely shore,
There is society, where none intrudes,
By the deep sea, and music in its roar:
I love not man the less, but Nature more,
From these our interviews, in which I steal
From all I may be, or have been before,
To mingle with the Universe, and feel
What I can ne'er express, yet cannot all conceal.

     -- Lord Byron

Maybe I’m making too big a deal about all of this but it plain makes me uncomfortable. My thesis defense, the culmination of 3 years of work is nigh, like roughly 48 hours nigh. As of right now, my ducks are in a row and I think I am nearly ready. Feel free to wish me any amount of luck you might be able to spare.

BTW, in case you were wondering, my major is aerospace engineering. Shortest post ever.

So that thesis thing is slowly creeping up on me. It is literally ALL I am thinking about. June 27. JUNE 27. That is less than 10 days away. I am really doing my best to stay calm but its not working. It also doesn’t help that I decided to quit smoking here in these past couple of weeks. Great timing right? I think what makes me nervous is that fact that so much rides on this thing, my career, my finances, too much if you asked me. I am frantic. My brain hardly works.

Just a few things here. I am busy beyond control. You see, I have been working on my graduate thesis for quite a while now and my educational day of reckoning is close at hand. My paper is all but done, which is a great relief, but I have that damn defense presentation weighing on my mind, and heavily at that. I am just afraid that they are going to ask questions and, in all my hard work, I won’t be able to answer a single one. I will stumble over my words, start sweating (more than my usual hefty amount), and collapse in an unintelligent heap on the floor. Read the rest of this entry »

I believe that today, the United States is approaching a very important time. Associated with that time are of course decisions, decisions by the people that populate our great land and by the people that our decisions have placed in positions of leadership. These facts spur in me, as they may in you, a great deal of thought and one of my thoughts seems to stand out amongst the others. That thought is this: Read the rest of this entry »

So I have been trying my hand at a bit of experimental photography, experimental for me at least. I really like photos and photography and all that jazz but my digital camera is just a point-and-shoot and is a few years old so, needless to say, the pictures it produces are not of a particularly stellar quality. What I do have, on the other hand, is a sweet Canon AE-1 35mm SLR from the 70s passed down from my dad. The catch? Read the rest of this entry »